The girls had voiced their opinions about me getting back involved with their father. Felicia had said that she remembered all of the nights that I had stayed awake crying because of what had happened the day before I left him. I also knew that people could change and he had done some of that from what I could see.
“Mom you are making a mistake if you think dad is not going to be the way he was.” Felicia said as she watched me apply my makeup and then head out of the bathroom towards the front door. “Felicia you are still a child and have no idea what love is and the fact that you have to do what you can for your children.” I was frustrated with her because in many ways she felt as though she was the parent and not me. I knew what I was doing and maybe he had changed.
After telling the girls that I was leaving and to make sure that they went to bed at a decent hour, I walked out the front door and down the ramp to my car. I really needed to trade the pice of garbage in on a newer model, but just did not really want to.
The drive to the dog park was a short one. I had forgotten how close I was now that the girls and I had moved to another house. The park was full of people and their dogs. I had wondered if getting Kendra a dog would be a good idea. I was not sure after what had happened to the horse though. I felt bad for Felicia because her horse passed away, but that was what happened.
When I found Keith he was dressed in his work uniform. “Hey you made it.” he said with a smile. I was wondering if he thought that I was not going to come. “Look I have been doing some thinking and I know what we should do tonight.” I was not sure what he was getting at, but I figured we would walk around a little while and then I would head back home to the girls.
“What are you wanting to do?” I asked as I started walking. He stopped me and pulled me over to face him. “I am trying to be serious and you are walking away from me like you are not even listening to me.” He was trying to be calm, but seemed a little irritated with the way I was now. “Sorry, but I have changed a lot the last few years and you should realize that.” I stood facing him waiting for him to tell me what he wanted to do.
“Look, I know that we have had some hard times and I was never that great with you when we were married before, but I want to fix all of that if you would just give me the chance.” Was he seriously talking about this now. Was he really wanting us to get remarried just for it to end once again.
Before I could give him an answer her pulled me into his arms and hugged me. “Please say you will remarry me?” he asked while he was kissing me. I was not sure what to say and did not even know if it would make the girls mad. I knew what my heart wanted and for some reason it took over. “Yes.” I guess I was stupid because it just came out.
“We have to get married right away and that is why i brought you here.” He wanted to get married right now in the middle of the dog park. “Wait, Keith what about the girls and our friends and family?” I couldn’t just cut the girls out could I mean Felicia didn’t even want me to have anything to do with her father. I think that she still resented him for the way things had ended before, but people change right?
“I know what you are thinking and you are wrong.” He was talking as he kissed down my neck and up to my lips. “I am a one woman man and have been miserable since you left and can’t see myself spending the rest of my life alone.” He let his hands linger and then pulled back to look at me. “Say you will right now and then we can go home.”
What was home. Was home the house that we had shared before, was home the house that I had just left, or was home the house that I had now? I tried to pull back enough to get a grip on what was happening. “Look If I agree to this there are a few changes that will need to be made, you will have to sell the house that you are living in right now.” I couldn’t go back to that house knowing that he had other females in the bed we once shared. “The other thing is no more out all night without me knowing a head of time and I sware that if I ever find out you are cheating, you will not see the light of day.” I was taking this a little to far I thought, but he agreed.
“I love you and want to be with you and I can sell the house, and never leave your sight again.” he was kissing me again trying to let my emotions play a part in my choices. “I am serious Keith because the girls are old enough now that they tell me things.” He pulled me back up agaist him. “I will never hurt you again.”
After a few hours we were sharing the same vows that we had made to each other all those years ago, but he had changed his. He also seemed to really be willing to make a change in his life and to stay with me. I was happy that I completely forgot about the girls for a while and what they would think about all of this. I had plans on telling them in the morning before they went to school.
“Emma, I am sorry for everything and promise to love you and be faithful until the day I die.” The words he spoke had never come out of his mouth and the fact that he was looking me directly in the eyes was helping. The last time we got married he was looking around at all of the people who were there and probably making plans for some of the females that he had seen at the wedding.
I had believed that he was a changed man because ever time a female walked by his eyes stayed planted with mine. When we finished the vows we looked around and noticed that we had a small audience. I looked back at him to find him watching every move that I was making. “Are you happy?” He asked as he grabbed my hands. I squeezed his hand and pulled him closer to me.
He cupped my face and kissed me. There was a different felling this time then the last time. I actually felt love, passion, and desire. I had never felt this from him before and maybe that was the best thing in the world.
We managed to get back to the house before the girls had gone to bed. “Girls your father and I need to talk to you.” I yelled as I walked in the door. Felicia came down the stairs as Kendra popped her head out of her bedroom door. “Yah mom.” They said in unison. Keith asked them to come and sit down at the table. Both of the girls did as they were told, but not without strange glances at each other.
“Look your father and I have made a decision and that is he is going to move back in the house.” I watched as Kendra got excited, but Felicia ont he other hand frowned. “Are you stupid mom?” Her question was no shock to me. “All dad is going to do is hurt you again and then what, we will have to move again.” her tone was a little higher than before. I was not sure how to make her understand.
“Felicia, your dad has proven that he can change and has done so.” I was still waiting on telling her that we were married again. “You know what in a few years I will be out of here any way and what I think you are doing is stupid, but it is your life I guess and you better think twice before you marry him again.” She went to stand up and storm out of the room, but the words that came from Keith’s mouth put her right back int he chair.
“That is the thing, your mother and I are already married again.” He held my hand as he spoke. Kendra got up from her chair and threw herself at him. “That is great!” She was so little when we divorced the first time that she had no bad memories of the time before. “What?” Felicia was pissed off now. “You are married again and you didn’t tell us first!” She stood up and looked at her father and then at me.
“You know what forget it, I am going to bed and going to stay in my room for a while, so LEAVE ME ALONE!” She stomped up the stairs. “Felicia wait.” I said trying to get her to come back. “Leave me alone.” She said as she made it the rest of the way up the stairs. A few seconds later we hears the sound of her door being slammed.
“Kendra you need to go to bed.” I said gently as I watched my younger daughter with a blank look on her face. “Okay.” she said as she hugged her father and I. A few minutes later her door shut and the light went off. I slid down into the kitchen chair wondering now if I had made the right decision.
“Em, she will be okay with this after a while.” When I took my head out of my hands, Keith was kneeled down next to the chair with his hands on my legs. “I am not so sure about that because she has a temper like my father did.” I pushed his hands back and stood up. He joined me and put his arms around my waist. “Why not we go spend the rest of our night together and worry about Felicia in the morning.” he said as he swung me up into his arms.
Once again we consummated our marriage, but for some reason my mind was not in it. I kept going back tow hat Felicia had said before she stomped off to her room. my own daughter had called me stupid. When Keith had finished he rolled over next to me and pulled me into his arms. He whispered several times that he loved me and gently kissed my neck. “Emma, where are you right now?” apparently he had noticed that my mind was somewhere else.
“Sorry, I am thinking about what Felicia had said again.” I placed my head on his shoulder and got close to him. As Keith and I layed there in the dark we talked about what we were going to do to make things okay with her again. “She will come around, we just have to give it a few days.” I knew that, I just wished we had thought this out before we jumpped into it. Keith and I fell asleep in each others arms. We had never done that before so it was something wonderful.
I woke early the next morning hopping to catch Felicia before she went off to school. Kendra was the first to make her way through the house and out the door to wait for the bus. A few minutes later I heard the footsteps of my daughter making their way down the stairs. “Felicia!” There was no answer. I turned to watch my daughter walk out the door.
I got up from the kitchen chair to follow her, but by the time I got to the door the girls were getting on the bus. I went back tot he chair that I was sitting in and finished eating. About twenty minutes later Keith came into the kitchen. “Didn’t feel you get up.” he said as he bent down and kissed my forehead. I nodded and went back to my food.
“Felicia is still not talking to me.” I said as I pushed my empty plate forward. He turned and looked at me as he held his coffee cup. “She will come around and if not she will learn to be okay with this.”
I was not so sure, but had to have some faith in the situation. Maybe my daughter would be okay with it, but then maybe she wouldn’t. I loved him and I was happy. I just wish that she could accept the situation before making a decision about her father. From the things that I had seen the last few months was that he had changed. Only time would tell if he stayed with me for the rest of his life. I did not want to be old and alone.
Author note: I know I said I was only going to have two chapters left, but I could not help adding more drama to this generation. I may have one more, but there may be two more chapters after this. We will see if Emma continues being stupid, or did Keith really change.